I have stumbled upon a new development, that I find…really awesome, actually.
It’s not something that I talk about often, because I try really hard to keep my brain focused on other parts of my life, but for a moment of honesty here, this is going to be a post that touches on a lot of interconnecting subjects, like health, fitness and body image issues.
It’s…pointedly not surprising that I have struggled with body image issues, being a young woman living in current American society.
Sometimes this has been more of a problem then others, but I honestly don’t know if there’s ever been a point in my life where I feel like I wanted to achieve some hazy goal of “being fit”.
(This is, as I am aware, really kind of a terrible goal, in the way that it is absolutely not measurable in any way. There are aspects of it that can be tracked, I guess, but when the goal is just some notion of “generally what most people think is hot”, that’s a *terrible goal*. Not the least of which being because it is absolutely and inherently undefinable. How can you tell if you’re getting closer? How can you tell if you’re there? When there are no measurable standards, it’s really hard to keep track of any kind of progress, which makes it very difficult for the goal to be “achieved”. Additionally fitness is not really a singularly achievable goal. It’s not something that can be done once and then ticked off. It requires maintenance, so again, just a different style of goal setting. There isn’t really a finish line.)
Anyway. Since I’ve come to Texas, I’ve tried to cut down on my sugar intake, and I’ve started keeping track of all of my wanderings with a pedometer.
Really, though, there was just a moment recently, when I had to replace a reasonable portion of my wardrobe, and I realized that…since the last time I bought many clothes, the average size of my clothing has shifted from extra-large towards medium.
I’m just, really really excited about this.
On the one hand it means that none of my old clothes really fit that well.
On the other hand…I feel like I’m getting so much closer to where I want to be.
(I do have fitness goals in mind, and I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find things that are concrete, measurable, with small steps that can be tracked for progress. I’m really happy, because this is something that has been a part of my life for a really long time, and I feel like I’m currently heading in a good direction with a lot of momentum.
I know I’ve said it already, but I’m really excited about it.